Almost back to normal...

Weight: 298.2
Total Weight loss: 51.8 pounds

I feel like I am just about officially into the 200s. The past few weeks I have been dipping my foot into the pool but never jumping in... but I feel like I am there for real. (I'm sure I am jinxing myself by saying that, oh well.) It was rather anti-climactic, since it happened so gradually, nothing exciting at all. I am still not ready to change the "bling" in the sidebar to 50 pounds lost, but maybe I should.

Things are still mopey, but getting back to normal, kind of. I'm thankful that it is a holiday weekend so that I don't have to return to work on Monday. An extra day off is always a nice thing, but especially after you've experienced a major blow to your emotions as I have.

I will confess that I haven't been eating the best, most healthy foods. I've been eating crap, mostly, but I have been watching how much, trying to eat mostly during daylight hours, and getting some exercise in the form of cleaning and gardening and just plain running around in. No, I still haven't returned to running and walking yet. I may wait until Tuesday. I could start Hal Higdon over again. Fortunately, my weight has been stable and even going down slowly, gradually. I'm definitely in control and for the most part not letting my emotions dictate my eating habits, i.e. I haven't been self-medicating with food or anything. We did, however, move the furniture around today. Sometimes, change is good.

Don't tell anyone, but I bought a pair of size 20 jeans the other day because the size 22s fit just a little, teeny bit loose and I wanted to be able to wear them into the winter if I can. The 20s (from Avenue, btw) are very snug and not suitable for public consumption just yet, but it won't be too long. FYI, I wore a pair of old size 22 dress pants to the funeral this past week. I made sure to get clearance from mom to make sure they didn't look godawful or anything. If it passes the mom test, then it's OK with me.

I'm getting there, despite hard times.