Back to Where I Started

Weight: 315.4
Total Weight loss: 34.6

Well, OK. I'm back to where I was before this past weekend. It took me most of the week to make up for the damage I did on Sunday. Oh well, at least it was pretty painless. Now that I am not in a race to lose weight this is really inconsequential, though rest assured that I am very happy that I have been able to bounce back from these indiscretions. See, I can have a life and be healthy. What a concept!

I'd just like to tell you something: take away your "due date" on your weight loss. Since I stopped expecting myself to lose 10 pounds a month, and being disappointed if I lost "only", say, seven pounds or five pounds, I've found myself so much happier. And doing all the things I am doing for myself seem so much more valuable somehow. All because I took away what was chalked up to be an unreasonable deadline. Now, as long as I see the trend line going in the downward direction (see PhysicsDiet.com) on my chart, I am happy, no matter how long it takes to lose the weight I want to lose.

Would I like to be finished losing what I'd like by my 40th birthday? Yes! But, what's more important is keeping up the habits I've developed -- eating more healthy foods than junk, running and other exercise, cultivating a more loving attitude toward myself -- and feeling better overall.

I've honestly never felt quite like this before. It's a huge thing, a real breakthrough.

I had a great run this morning, Week 7, Day 2 of Couch to 5K. It's another 25 minute straight run. I'm pleased to say that my speed has increased to 3.24 mph, just over a 17-minute mile pace. I also covered just over two miles total this morning, including my warm up and cool down walks. Definitely still making substantial progress. It certainly wasn't without struggle, and I continue to talk my way through at spots, but hey! That's what it's all about. That constant challenge to get better. I am so into it.

This afternoon I have my follow-up doctor's appointment. I'll get the results of my bloodwork and my EKG and heart holter tests, and see how I am holding up. I'm really interested (but slightly scared) to see what my cholesterol levels are, especially, and whether I am borderline diabetic or anything. Who'd have ever thought that I'd be excited to go see a doctor? Ha ha!

Also, so far today I've only had to eat fruits and vegetables, along with some yogurt. It feels pretty nice! I can practically hear my body saying, "Ahhhhhhhhh! That's nice!!!"

Yep, feeling the self-love today, big time. Hope you are, too.