Nervous! Need to Refocus

Ugh. Yikes! I am nervous about running in the 5K tonight! But I also excited. I have no idea what to expect but I'm just going to go and do my best, and hopefully I will make it through OK, and that they will let me finish. I am trying to prepare myself for the likely possibility that I will come in last of the runners, and that even some walkers will beat me to the finish line. I'm pretty certain I am OK with that; I mean, someone's got to pull in the rear, right? At least I am out there doing it, and that's what important.

I slept pretty well last night, and long -- from 10pm to about 6:15am. But I was a little worried because I've been really achey the past few days, probably mostly PMS-related. I should probably pick up some Motrin or something this afternoon on my lunch break to help with that.

Also, this morning the scale was most disagreeable. I had a bit of a free-for-all last night, which was the result of saying, "Oh, I will just have some popcorn for dinner, it'll be fine," and then end up grazing for a good portion of the evening. How discouraging! Still, I can't imagine that I really ate 3.5 pounds worth of gain. :( That puts me back up over 310 again, which I was hoping to avoid ever again. I think maybe at least until I get down below 300, I'm going to start tracking food intake again, just to make sure I am on track and not getting too loose-goose. It'd be so sad to see all my hard work go down the drain because I got careless.

I know it's probably not just the food I ate last night (one night does not make or break), but also TOM and just normal fluctuation noise... but still, I want to nip this in the bud and get really serious again. I haven't been serious enough lately, to be honest. I want desperately to be under 300 pounds, but I am not going to get there half-heartedly. I have to MAKE it happen; I have to effect change.

Anyway, would y'all wish me lots of luck tonight? I won't have anyone there to cheer me on personally, though don't worry, I'll be sure to take at least some photos, and grab a stranger to take mine so I've got proof I really did it. (I'm not sure I will believe it myself, haha!)