Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Fresh starts?

I can't even bring myself to report to you my weigh-ins lately. It's gotten pretty bad, to tell the truth. After an especially indulgent weekend (for no good reason, really), I really saw it on the scale. OK, basically I gained 6 pounds over the weekend, if you can believe it.

I'm down a pound today, which is good, but I am still just not feeling "into it" lately. I've got all kinds of crap floating around in my head that just complicates things (unrelated to food or anything), haven't been in the best mindspace overall.

I am still determined not to go back to where I started, though. Just so you know. I really am going to contain this. To be honest, I am looking forward to the new year and fresh beginnings. 2008 held many great accomplishments and good times for me, but I also experienced much loss and sadness. This morning, in fact, I found out that my cat Rose, who's been living with my mom for the past thirteen years, had to be put to sleep last night. She's been sick and had bladder cancer, so it's not a huge surprise, but it still hurts. And knowing that my mom is dealing with even more loss is especially upsetting. I know she is looking forward to saying goodbye to 2008.

I've been considering starting a new blog to replace this one in the new year, and to not renew my Daily Plate gold membership. I'm going to return to Fitday or sign up at Sparkpeople instead. Speaking of which, they had a link to a good, timely article in their e-newsletter today, which you can read here. It reminded me that no matter how things have ended this year, I have still lost at least 10% of my starting weight -- nothing to sneeze at, for sure. It's important to recognize any amount of success any of us have at this game, and this article was a great reminder of that.

In the meantime, I'm going to do the best I can to not gain more weight in the next few weeks, and maybe even get back down to good old 305 by the beginning of January, and go from there.

Thanks for hanging in there with me.


Ruby Khan said...

How about shift your thinking about The Forty Project and say it was actually about losing the first 40 pounds? In that case, the project is a resounding success and can be closed with no regrets.

Then you can launch the sparkly new Thirty Project. Later on, The 5k Project. Then maybe The Forty Project Part Two. Because starting projects is the fun part, right?


You can do it lady. Hang tough.

Anonymous said...

Hi, As Lisa said awhile back, just keep maintaining right now & through Christmas and New Year parties. Try really hard to keep close to maybe 310? or whatever you set for yourself.

I'm sure you will feel a new energy and spurred on once again when the festivities are all finished, and with the start of 2009. [but we can't allow ourselves major 'license to party' either; we need to stay moderate so we can face 2009!] Remember, that is when you started this amazing journey last year. And look what you accomplished! WOW! Maybe reread some of your blog for encouragement.?

My 1 yr anniversary of a similar journey is in January too.

Keep on, girl. I check in with your frequently to see how you are doing. Sorry to hear about your kitty!!

And just as further encouragement--caution w/your $$ over Christmas too!



Elaine said...

I know it's been a rough year. We'll be hanging with you into 2009, for sure. :)

Cameron VSJ said...


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