Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Nervous! Need to Refocus

Ugh. Yikes! I am nervous about running in the 5K tonight! But I also excited. I have no idea what to expect but I'm just going to go and do my best, and hopefully I will make it through OK, and that they will let me finish. I am trying to prepare myself for the likely possibility that I will come in last of the runners, and that even some walkers will beat me to the finish line. I'm pretty certain I am OK with that; I mean, someone's got to pull in the rear, right? At least I am out there doing it, and that's what important.

I slept pretty well last night, and long -- from 10pm to about 6:15am. But I was a little worried because I've been really achey the past few days, probably mostly PMS-related. I should probably pick up some Motrin or something this afternoon on my lunch break to help with that.

Also, this morning the scale was most disagreeable. I had a bit of a free-for-all last night, which was the result of saying, "Oh, I will just have some popcorn for dinner, it'll be fine," and then end up grazing for a good portion of the evening. How discouraging! Still, I can't imagine that I really ate 3.5 pounds worth of gain. :( That puts me back up over 310 again, which I was hoping to avoid ever again. I think maybe at least until I get down below 300, I'm going to start tracking food intake again, just to make sure I am on track and not getting too loose-goose. It'd be so sad to see all my hard work go down the drain because I got careless.

I know it's probably not just the food I ate last night (one night does not make or break), but also TOM and just normal fluctuation noise... but still, I want to nip this in the bud and get really serious again. I haven't been serious enough lately, to be honest. I want desperately to be under 300 pounds, but I am not going to get there half-heartedly. I have to MAKE it happen; I have to effect change.

Anyway, would y'all wish me lots of luck tonight? I won't have anyone there to cheer me on personally, though don't worry, I'll be sure to take at least some photos, and grab a stranger to take mine so I've got proof I really did it. (I'm not sure I will believe it myself, haha!)

8 comments:

Poonie said...

GOOD LUCK!!!

We want to hear all about it tomorrow. :-)

Kitzzy said...

I didn't see this yesterday, but I am sure you did great! I can' wait to hear all about it.

Michelle said...

Good Luck!! You'll be great. Let us know how it goes!!

Elaine said...

Good luck! Will definitely be rooting for ya. :)

Jesse said...

i'll say it again here: you will do awesome! wish i could cheer you on in person!

Sarah J said...

Good Luck!!!

weelittleme said...

Heaps of luck for you hon! you are going to do great! Speed is irrelevant, you are a runner, you are doing 5K how cool is that!

I hear you on wanting to get seriously dedicated to getting that scale going. I'm with you on that totally. I've been stuck in the same place since the beginning of June... time for some movement! We can do this.

The Better Idiot said...

I would say the gain has definitely come in with those special monthly aches and will leave with them. How did the 5k go?