Thursday, August 28, 2008

Losses and Gains

Weight: 301.2
Total Weight loss: 48.8 pounds

My stepdad, Basil, passed away early Saturday morning, August 23rd. It's been a whirlwind since then. Yesterday was the funeral, today is the first day I have had since late last week to take a breather. I'm pretty tired and just generally mopey. My mom seems to be holding up relatively well considering and still has my stepsisters around, so today I am holed up at home. It's grey and drizzly out today, perhaps appropriately.

It feels a little on the trite side to be posting about this stuff -- weight loss and fitness -- but Basil was proud of my efforts and I know he would want me to soldier on. If I didn't start blogging sooner than later, I might veer back into no man's land, and I really don't want that to happen.

I weighed myself every day but yesterday when I stayed over at my mom's house. There were a couple days when I went on "The Basil Diet" and didn't eat a whole lot of anything and saw a pretty drastic loss... down to 297, 295... held under 300 for a few days. Yesterday was one of those free for all days for when you are feeling really low and you just hang out with family and eat lots of food and chat and share rememberances, so I am not upset about my weigh this morning. It'll be down again soon enough.

Also, I haven't been out for a run or walk in abut two weeks now. I may start up again this weekend, I do miss it.

Mostly I just feel numb and empty, and probably will for a little while. But, I know that life goes on and that Basil would want me to carry on my efforts and be happy in life. I dedicate this entry to him and his memory.

Basil J. DeBlasi, 1939-2008
We will always remember you in your best times!


Elaine said...

You have my immense sympathy. I know it's tough, and I hope getting back into your healthy routine will help a little.

Kate said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your step-dad. I'm sure he was very proud of you and what you're accomplishing.

Ruthie said...

so sorry to hear about your loss :(
wishing you and your family peace and blessings through this time of loss.

hang in there.
God Bless,


BioGirl said...

Really sorry to hear about your loss - I knew something was probably up to keep you away for so long. Losing a parent is incredibly hard - but keep in mind how proud he was and would be of all the achievements I know you're going to make!

SeaShore said...

I'm sorry for your loss. Take care.

Ruby Khan said...

I'm sorry to hear the sad news, Amy.

There's nothing trite about thinking of your own life and health and happiness in the face of sadness. It makes perfect sense.

For what it's worth, Basil DiBlasi is a pretty badass name. I'm sure it looks great in whatever scripty font heaven uses in their big "who gets in here" book. If you're into that kind of thing. :)

Hugs and love. xo

Boilergrad1993 said...

I was afraid something had happened to you stepdad when you were away so long. I'm sorry to hear about your family's loss.

BikiniMe said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

Jo said...

You are definitely entitled to a few days (or even weeks) of slacking off here... Dealing with the loss of someone close to you is very trying and tiring on the soul.

I'm very sorry to read of your loss and feel the need to say "It freaking sucks, I know", which is oddly the best thing anyone ever said to me when I lost someone I loved. I guess it was sort of permission to release my true feelings instead of being "strong".

I hope your next entry goes on to say how well your first walk or run back went :)