Friday, October 24, 2008

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

The Good: After over two weeks of relative inactivity, I got up very early and took a run by the moonlight and stars. I managed to run for 32 minutes and covered 1.78 miles. In addition to that I had five-minute warm-up and cool-down walking sessions. Overall, I covered almost two and a quarter miles, and it felt really good! So nice to challenge myself again and have my body come through for me even though I have been treating it like crap lately.

The Bad: The past few days I have been hovering just above my threshold weight of 305. This morning, even after the run, I weighed in a 307.8, a number I haven't seen in months. I was pretty horrified. What if I hadn't run this morning, then what? Eesh.

The Ugly: I've been eating like crap lately, falling almost entirely back into my old habits. I sure can feel the difference in my energy level, and just my overall feeling. In short, it sucks. I don't like feeling this way at all, and I don't like seeing the number on scale increasing like that, especially after maintaining for a couple months! Time to nip this thing once and for all.

I suppose I could make all sorts of sweeping changes and proclamations, but you know what? That hasn't worked for me so far, so I am not going to do it now. I don't honestly know how I am going to handle this situation exactly, but I am going to take action before the gain gets out of hand. Running this morning was a good start, and I am going to be very busy making art this weekend, so I won't have much time for sitting on my ass in front of the TV munching out on whatever I have made handy for myself. At the very least, I need to break the habit I rebuilt of evening indulgence -- crap I really don't need to eat every night like big bowls of ice cream (why did I even buy it?). Mind you, I am not demonizing ice cream, merely my inability to keep a half gallon in the house at this point in time. It just makes it too easy to veer off track. Who needs it?

Fortunately, my body is craving vegetables, believe it or not. I bought some salad fixings for tonight's dinner, and last night we enjoyed yet another new stir fry. Plus, with the economy the way it is, who can afford to fill themselves with junk?

*sigh* I'm just still not ready to give up. I have so much work still to do, and I am going to get there eventually, however long it takes!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Boy I hear you. It's hard to get more motivated when you've taken baby steps and see no result -- why does everything have to feel like such a monumental effort??