Monday, October 27, 2008


Weight: 310
Total Weight loss: 40 pounds

Wow. This is really disappointing and scary! How can I do this to myself?

OK, I'm not crying about this and I am not beating myself up over it either. This isn't the result of taking baby steps and not seeing positive changes. No. This is the result of bad eating habit: too much of the wrong things. I need to start eating just the right amount of the right things instead. Today, I decided. I'm going to look back at all the things I was doing when I was having good results, and do them again. This includes things like tracking my food intake at The Daily Plate, entering my weight every day at Physics Diet (I have been doing that, actually, but I also want to start entering my daily calorie intake there again, too), and getting in some form of exercise at least three days a week. I'm going back to measuring food amounts more diligently instead of just guesstimating. All of it. I have to, because look how easy it is to go back to where I started almost a year ago! It takes a matter of days to slide back. And I just can't do that to myself again. Not to mention, I have clothes waiting for me on the "other" side -- I've got all my dark side clothes packed and ready to be sold and/or donated.

None of this has been easy, but a time like this is really when my mettle is tested. If I can bring myself away from this dark place now, I will be OK.

And I WILL be OK. I will.

Positive thoughts and vibes would be greatly appreciated. I want to get this 10 pounds off as quickly as possible, and your support will make it that much easier.

Love to all!


Elaine said...

Just dropping by to leave a "you can do it!" message...because I know you can. Just bring your goals back to the front of your mind. [And maybe start with eating the right amount of the wrong things? As a baby step! :)] Good luck and keep going!

Boilergrad1993 said...

Sending positive thoughts your way!! Like you said, just refocus and do the things you did to get to this point and you'll see the results. Slow and steady wins the race. Isn't it amazing (frustrating) how it can take weeks to get a few pounds off, but DAYS to put it back on? I can SO relate to your last few posts. I've been so inconsistent with my eating and exercise and I've been stuck at 309 for weeks!!