Wednesday, July 9, 2008

HYC Check-in: Taking a Step Back

Oops, I'm a day late on check-in, but you know what they say, better late than never!

I'm still here, which is in itself an accomplishment. It's true. After six months of life-changing activity, I am still here and still committed to achieving my goals. Monday was my six monthiversary, btw! It hasn't always been easy, but I have come a long way and can't wait to see what the next six months will bring. I already mapped out what I would like see six months from now, in this post -- I was so excited about it I jumped the gun a bit. I set a weight goal that is attainable by losing just 1.5 pounds a week, which is just about what I have been averaging, but I plan to be happy no matter how much weight I lose by then, as long as I lose something!

Many thanks to those of you who responded to my last post concerning taking a break from running for a week. Just what I needed to hear, some confirmation that my feelings were valid and even wise! Well, I did end up trying a run yesterday morning anyway, and while I did complete the prescribed 1.5 miles, I did have to walk about a third of it. So sluggish! And I had even had a snack before heading out, an apple, to see if that would help matters a bit. Usually I run on an empty stomach. Regardless, it was another tough run, and on top of that, my knee started acting up again. The gods have apparently spoken, and I am taking the hint: at least a week off from running, and then return working with perhaps an even novicer novice program, like Hal's 5K Training instead of the 10K. I need to work on building up to the 3 mile runs, even though I have already done a few. They're just still a bit too much for me, so I'd like to build some more endurance for shorter distances before I try to go beyond that and train for the 10K. It was just easy to get wrapped up in progress!

For all the success I have had so far with running, the reality is that I am still very heavy and the pounding of the pavement is a lot of stress on my body. I can't compare myself to someone much more lightweight than me, even if we've started running at the same time (which I have been doing to an extent, I admit it). Like it or not, most others have the advantage of having to carry a lot less weight. I want to be careful not to hurt myself, so I am going to keep at it but keep it slow and easy until I lose a bit more weight. How much, I don't know... I'll see how I feel as I go along. But as C. said, "It's not like you're an Olympic runner or something," so taking a week off will not be the end of the world. I will just give my body a chance to catch up with itself.

I had a good eating day yesterday, after having a weird slight binge on Sunday evening with a whole bag of marshmallows, of all things, and having it show viciously on the scale the next day. This morning it was back down again, and I still think I can see 305 by the end of the week if I stay focused. That is my main goal for now. And I still have three weeks to try to get into the 200s for a secondary goal, which would be great.

Anyway, I don't know. It's been a rough past few days overall. I'm worried a lot about my mom and stepdad mostly... his illness is right there beneath the surface at all times in my mind, and it's definitely taking a toll.


Ready Maid said...

Glad to hear you're back on track, examining your running routine and deciding not to stash marshmellows in the house, period.

I'm holding good thoughts for your parents. Dealing with family illness is never easy, but moving away from worry and into "now" faith can sometimes relieve the stress and give you a feeling that you are contributing to a positive resolution of any situation.

Hang in there, Kiddo. You're doing great, and I sense a real flow of positive energy in your words today.

Cammy said...

Happy 6-months! You have had amazing successes and I'm sure you'll have an equally (or more!) successful second half of the year.

Stress will play havoc with your ability to withstand the Satanic marshmallows, so be very careful. Perhaps you could introduce local legislation to have them banned? :)

Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

You're a smart woman to be listening to your body. That is definitely the way to go. You want to be in this for the long haul and getting hurt is not going to help. I find that my body tells me when it is too much and even if it feels good to go there every now and again it is smart to back off once you get the message.

Something you could do, since weight loss is a big goal is include more weekly mileage but make some or much of it walking instead of running. The walking will be much easier on your joints, it will get you ready to take on more endurance and time on your feet so it will help the running in the long run and it is great for burning fat but at least in my case doesn't stimulate the appetite as much.

I definitely want to be doing more walking. Tried to walk to work this am and slid down the icy sidewalk in front of our house since the frost hadn't melted yet :)

Good luck with whatever you choose and have a great rest and recovery period!

Michelle said...

Marshmellows?! Well, these things happen. Do you need to get them out of the house? I had a weird marshmellow thing one time with PB2 but it was a one-time thing so the marshmellows stay. It's nice to hear you're taking things at a reasonable pace and not comparing yourself to others, that never works.

Ritsumei said...

Sounds like you're positive and still working, which for me is a huge step in the right direction! Happy 6 months!