Thursday, July 31, 2008

More Thinking

I can't stop thinking about my earlier post and how unclear I was being in the correlations I was making. I think what it is... is that, I have been using my morning exercise to "make up" for my evening transgressions (the brownie, the popcorn). To me that is practically a binge/purge scenario, though certainly not as extreme as a session of uncontrollable eating followed by, say, forced vomiting (which I could never bring myself to do) or taking laxatives (which was my purge of choice way back when).

The good thing is, I guess, that the eating involved now is not binging but considered choices, (I chose quite consciously to have a bowl of popcorn or a brownie knowing that I didn't have the room for them) and that they resulted in positive action, doing something I was going to do anyway. But you can see now more clearly how I equated each situation? I do.

As I said before, self-awareness goes a long way on this journey. It's nice to make these discoveries about myself and the reasoning behind my actions and thoughts.

Thanks for reading.

2 comments:

BikiniMe said...

It is my belief that self-awareness is the heart and soul of this journey and that perhaps, acquiring self-awareness is the only way to truly succeed. Permanent weight loss requires permanent change, and the best (only?) way to change yourself is to know yourself.

Actually, I really think that the weight loss is a side effect, a bonus, of acquiring self-awareness.

Boilergrad1993 said...

I 100% relate to your post. Most days I exercise because I enjoy it and it's good for me, but there are many days where I exercise to 'make up' for what I've eaten the day before. And the thing is I ALWAYS feel crappy when I overeat or when I eat something that maybe I shouldn't. So why do I do it?