Tuesday, April 22, 2008

On the Upswing

Weight: 320.2
Total Weight loss: 29.8

Well, I'm feeling a great deal better today (and yesterday) after that horrible weekend. Just the desire to get past a hard time, to continue making progress no matter how slow, got me through it. I can be pretty stubborn when I want (or need) to be! And I just cannot see myself slipping back into my old life. I just can't do that.

So in a way, it was good that I went through that. Those experiences seem to function as shoves when I let them. When I am not coasting through this process, it makes me more thoughtful. Sometimes it's very painful and frustrating, but sometimes I just dig my heels in and say to myself, "Stop the wallowing! Just get back on the damn horse. You'll be fine if only you don't give up." I know that even though I set my goal to lose ten pounds a month, shouldn't lessen the success of losing eight pounds, or five pounds or even one pound.

I know I've said this several times before, but I really have to credit the C25K plan for keeping me on track. I can't tell you how it makes me feel to challenge myself in that way, and to feel myself getting fitter each time I "run", even if the pounds or inches aren't coming off the way I'd hoped. I think running is going to save my life.

This morning was the first day of Week 4, by the way! It's got by far the most running in it, quite a dramatic shift, in fact. I did pretty well, though my speed was a little slower and my stamina challenged by the final five-minute run segment. But I did it, and I'm looking forward to the rest of the week's runs as well.

You can see above that I am back down at 320, which is great. I have a good feeling about this week! This is the week I'm plunging into the three hundred teens. I have five pounds to go until my first 10% is lost!

I have some catching up to do...


Bella said...

Fantastic! I think that "down days" come into our weight loss journey so that we are aware of how we don't want our lives to be anymore. The reason they make us feel so bad is because we know we're better than that, and thankfully, it doesn't take too much to get us back on the right track.

I'm so impressed with your progress on the C25K program. I have been wanting to start the program myself, as I've written before, but I get terrible cramps in my legs (shins and calves). Reading your posts about running makes me want to work through the pain, because I know that eventually, it will go away.

Congrats for getting out of your funk so quickly, and I'm pulling for you to see under 320 on the scale this week!

radiosilents said...

Bella, thanks for the kind words and thoughtful insight.

As for the C25K, I have been impressing myself, though I must say that everyone knew how slow I really go, they probably wouldn't be quite as bowled over. ;) But, speed will come eventually. I'm definitely feeling improvement in my stamina and cardio.